Wednesday, December 28, 2016

What I Did in 2016

Every year, when New Year rolls around, it's a time to reflect on what we have done and also aim for new goals, new aspirations for what we want to change in our lives once we've been able to reflect. One year can feel like a blink of an eye, but it can also feel like a century. The thing is that even though one year can fly by, there's a lot that occurs and changes within that one year. Today, I am doing part one of the two, reflecting on what I've done, both personally, and publicly on my blog, because I did a lot in 2016, even if it's just a huge pile of little things, I've still changed a lot and achieved at lot throughout the year.



My Personal Life


I think that personally, 2016 hasn't been a bad year. I've definitely been a lot happier, even though I've still had my ups and downs. Every year, I push myself a little more outside of my comfort zone and every time I do it, I feel happier with myself, more confident, more fearless, and more enriched by the experience(s).

I told people about my blog. I think that it's a little different for everyone, but for me, it was frightening to tell people about my blog. (Here's my post on what it's like telling people about your blog) Telling people about my blog is scary for me. I still don't tell people about it, besides my close friends, because I just feel so vulnerable with other people reading my blog. It's like having your innermost thoughts read by your peers. By strangers, it doesn't frighten me, but knowing that people that I already have established relationships with, whether mere acquaintances or friendships, still scares me today. However, I gained enough confidence to tell some people about it and although it was hard, it was a step in the right direction and I'm proud of that.

I stepped out of my comfort zone by pushing myself to reach for a leadership position in school. It was a small one, but I definitely wouldn't have seen myself going for it in the past. I wasn't originally planning on reaching for it, but I was encouraged by friends and pushed myself to put aside my fears and go for it. And I ended up getting the position and I'm glad that I pushed myself to go for it. In addition, I got accepted into another program, one that would allow me to learn more about fashion and merchandising, also a slight risk that paid off. I also tried to reach for other goals, things that I wasn't sure that I would be able to achieve. Although I was able to get that leadership position, there were other opportunities that I wasn't likely to get, but I still applied for them, tried my best for them, but in the end I didn't succeed. And yeah, I was a little upset in each time that this happened, but I can continue on knowing that I had tried. Throughout 2016, I have been trying to live with no (or few) regrets. So I went for things that were a) out of my comfort zone and b) not guaranteed, knowing that I would be risking putting myself out there. In these cases, I put myself out there and I lost, but at least I never have to go on wondering, "What if?"

I went to China, which was a huge and crazy experience for me. I love traveling, but this time, I was traveling with a group of people that I had never met before. I traveled to China with an educational program, full of people that we once total strangers. We flew to China and then attended cultural and Chinese classes, while also touring around the city. Later, we flew to Beijing, where we got to see the famous attractions, such as the Forbidden City and the Great Wall of China. Although it seemed like a simple travel experience, it was so much more than that. There were a lot of situations that put me outside of my comfort zone and I think that they changed me for the better. I did things that I never would have seen myself doing. And like my life, although there were ups and downs, I was happy overall, maybe one of the happiest times I had ever been. I made bonds with the people that I was traveling with, despite being total strangers at first. And I have no regrets with that trip, which is the way that I want to live. My experience in China was completely different than my normal routine life. It was so out of my comfort zone, which was just what I needed.

On the Blog


I've been so much more open and honest and creative on my blog. I've been focusing on putting my best foot forward. There are definitely some posts that are on my blog that I've created within the past year that are not my best work and that maybe I'm not completely proud of, but for the most part, I'm proud of the work that I've presented on my blog. I feel like throughout the year, I've been changing the conversation on my blog. I've been talking less about shoes and dresses and a bit more about me. The honest truth is that I don't even really read a lot of blog posts about fashion and beauty. Sometimes I do, but they rarely are the things that capture my attention. I've been realizing that the kind of content that I'm excited about reading is the kind of content that I can relate to. A discussion about self-love, a discussion about reaching success, a discussion about mental health. So I figured, why would I create content that I don't even want to read? And that's when I began changing my content, starting from the beginning of 2016 with my New Year's resolution to be more creative with my content, I tried to change the kinds of things that appear on my blog to be more aimed that what I really want to be reading, content that I'm proud of, content that I would read if it wasn't my own.

The kinds of things that I want to know as I read content is how everything mentioned relates to my life. Fashion is great, but there's just something about the connection that can be established between author and reader when discussing personal topics that fashion just can't do for me. I wanted to talk about things that maybe readers might be going through. I'm no philanthropist or charity worker, but I wanted to try and help people, help people like me. To stop people from feeling these same feelings of inadequacy and fear that have plagued. However, the thing is that it's not easy to talk about yourself, I hate talking about my problems. I hate admitting about when I'm going through a tough time or when things just aren't going right for me. But this year, I've been so much more open about it on my blog. And it's been good for me, reflecting on my own experiences, but I've been doing it all in hopes that maybe, just one person out there, is feeling like they're not alone as they read my posts. I want my posts to reach readers, tell them that they're not alone in their struggles, while also helping them. And that's why I created the Peter Pan Diaries.

Overall, I am proud of what my blog has become. I've been writing posts that I'm so proud of, that I feel are creative and honest and real. Because we don't need anymore of that fake stuff on the internet where we tiptoe around issues so that we don't have to address them. I'm over pretending to be perfect. When I started my blog, I tried to pretend to be perfect, to pretend that I had my life together and that everything was good. But it's not. And now I'm okay with admitting that. I'm not perfect, and that's okay. 

So what did I do in 2016?


To summarize, in 2016 I pushed myself to step outside my comfort zones, both in my personal life and on my blog. 2016 has been a pretty good year for me. Although it's been a mess in the public world, on a personal level, it's been a year of self-reflection and personal growth, which is just what I needed. My experiences throughout the year have changed my perspective on things but also made me feel happier. And I consider anything that makes me happier as a win. If I was to summarize the year, for the majority of the time, I've been happy. And isn't that the ultimate goal in life, to be happy? And I'm happy right now. So overall, 2016, hasn't been too bad. I don't know what's next to come in 2017, but I'm ready for it. 

6 comments:

  1. I can totally relate to not telling people about my blog. That is something that definitely takes alot of guts! Especially telling close friends. It's a pretty vulnerable area. I still need to tell some people! :)
    Happy New Year!
    Caitlin
    lemonadepressblog.com

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    1. It's so scary, but it's worth it in the end. Happy New Year and good luck!
      Rebecca xo

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  2. This year I have also found the courage to tell others about my blog and new YouTube channel. Though I know there is a lot more room for me to be more comfortable about it. I'm glad we can both say we are taking a step in the right direction though! :)
    -E
    www.ellysavenue.com

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    1. That's great to hear that we're both making progress! See, 2016 isn't all that bad, is it?
      Rebecca xo

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  3. What a great post! I definitely struggle with telling people about my blog as well! You are doing amazing keep doing what you are doing!

    -Gretchen
    navyandstripes.com

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